He hears me call His name, He listens to my cry.

ive been praying and ive been hoping. ive been questioning 'hope' & 'prayer' for the past two weeks now. what if im hoping for something not there? what if im praying for something thats not a guarantee? am i praying for the right things? what does God want me to pray for? lately, ive been praying for specific things that i want but then i began to question whether or not it will come. i didnt want to waste my time. i asked myself, ok, im praying for this specific thing to come but will it? is that really what God wants for me? even though i know what i want only God knows what i need. God knows what my hearts desires but it does not mean thats what im going to get.

i let it go. i let my worry go. Ive been resisting with God lately telling him, no but i dont want to. i know it can happen, can you just give me this chance please? God answered, fine. let me see you try. i tried. you cant argue with God. the more i began to argue with him the more my heart started hurting, my mind became distracted and stress was ready to takeover so i put my hands up. God wins again! of course, right? what was i thinking in the first place? King of all Kings, Lord of all Lords, God is bigger than any problem i can ever encounter. i reminded myself again, Matthew 11:28-30 says this:
28 "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

someone told me to pray for a christian man to come into my life. and i said, what? really? someone else? but why!? i began to think about it. two days ago i talked to God and said, you got me. please help me. i trust you. i am going to trust you. please help me pray for what you want me to pray for. the right things for me, what i need not what i want for myself. i was like a light switch that day because feelings kept coming and going but God gave me the strength to flick it of my shoulders like it was just a piece of lint and i did. proverbs 3:5 says this, Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; although i was doubtful God knows me more than i know myself so who am i to doubt? i went on my yahoo account where we are able to share our own opinions with each other and came across someones reply in response to a girls question who seemed to be in the same position i 'was' in and it read this:

'Please put your trust in Jesus ....not a man. If you ask Jesus into your heart to live and start living for him....you will be blessed. Then pray for a christian man who will love you like Christ loves his bride (the true church). If you wait on the lord you will be blessed. If you keep choosing your own men and living in sin....you will keep getting a broken heart.I will pray for you! '

dianesumler

i laughed at myself and said, haha. really God? You truely are something else. with all my questions about prayer, hope, and patience for the past two weeks, God has brought me here. He has something for me, something He promised and im ready for this obstacle. For all the questions ive been confused about and all the prayers about all my hopes, God has guided me to find the answers. hes prepared me for this one and im ready for this. God created his children to be confident, and here i am standing without fear except for the fear of Him.

its been two days and i must say, my heart, spirit, mind and soul has not felt any more peaceful and rested like this ever before. im in Love and He Loves me. its amazing!