in love.

nothing in my life i going right, but honestly, im the happiest i have ever been.
when i use to work at applebox located in seaport village, i never unerstood what my manager would preach to me about. she would always talk to me about how God should be our first, God is our first husband, first love, first everything.
james 1:3 says:
2 Consider it all joy, when you encounter various trials,
3 knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance.
4 And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.

now, i clearly understand the meaning of those words. ive been face to face with several situations & all the trials ive encountered have led me closer to God. im nothing without him. gradually, i began to see myself grow into new. everything i once use to hold on to that dealt with the world began to wither away like dead leaves. my heart isnt there anymore. its not into alcohol, or concerts, hanging out downtown and whatnot. my heart is into God.