im right where He wants me to be at.
they say God puts you through trials to break you down and today i realized that where i am right now, is exactly where he wants me to be at. Today we had a family lunch and as Will drove i sat just thinking about where i am in life right now, i sat and thought about everything ive done, i sat and remembered everything ive learned from Him, i sat and i smiled. i smiled because God has something awesome for me but He knows im not ready yet, i smiled because God knows what i need and hes helping me become a better person. I learned how to pray for strength instead of praying that jacob will stop crying, i learned how to pray for faith, instead of praying to take my pain away, i learned how to pray for wisdom instead of praying to God to give me answers, i learned how to pray for patience instead of praying for what i want/need. When that day comes He wants me to be perfect for it. james 1:4 says, Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. He's still working on me, the spiritual reality of it all is that im not ready for the answer to my prayer thats why God is not giving it to me yet, that is why God is just sitting there nodding his head just listening. While im praying to God, God is changing my heart.