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im cutting down on the meat. best friend krystle says to try lean meat, im going to try that. ive been buying edamame (soy beans) and eating it at home just as well as salad. im not going to eat heavy meals, or meat such as RED meat after 6pm. i feel determined to get fit, i have a year! i know im not FAT, im just chunky...around my stomach especially. i really want to start running and try my best to do whatever it takes to develop a firm stomach. it will save me $1000.

TRENTON DUCKETT
i was on youtube and came across this a video of a missing boy named Trenton Duckett. heres the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j2j_IWRjOvA & this one, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_0mWn9aNMjA .
he was born on august 10, 2004. his mother, melinda duckett, had said he was abducted on august 27, 2006. less than two weeks later, melinda duckett committed suicide.
although this occurred in Leesburg, Florida, miracles happen. & it is a small world after all. i dont know who he is, or the family, but the fact that i have two boys...i just pray hes okay regardless the fact thats its been past a year since his disappearence.

i dont know what i would do if i lost any of my two boys. its simply unimagineable. the mother, Melinda Duckett, had left a suicide note to her parents saying that she gave up. she couldnt be a good mother and she always felt like she failed. she was working two jobs and trying to go to school full time. she says that she wished she can give all her time to her son and its what she should have been doing but didnt and couldnt. note this, our life doesnt belong to us.

2 corinthians 5:7
"WALK BY FAITH, NOT BY SIGHT..."
oh how i wish she had thought about what she had done. i was a mother to caleb who is mentally disabled, pregnant to jacob, working part time and going to school full-time. as much as i wanted to give up, i took it like it was nothing. and now? i dropped ALL my classes because i needed to be with my kids. im not bragging, my point is that...theres always hope, theres always faith, and mostly, there is always God <3>