so this is me.

EASTER
was awesome. not everyone was there but it was great to have everyone together for easter. the kids and i went to church and will came along as well. we ended our sunday morning well, so i hope things only progress from there. my lolo was having his usual mood swings, you know asking where the father of my kids are and whatnot. he has alzheimers and still thinks im 11 years old on his bad days. i also noticed that he was holding a picture frame with my lolas picture in it. she passed away in 2002. it made me wonder if i was going to be like that, you know...hole my husbands picture. i miss her. well, moving along...an hour or two later, he was all smiles. he was smiling at caleb and laughing with him. for the first time he held his great grandson. he loves him and was singing to him too! i took so many pictures <3

SOUTHBEACH DIET
my cousin came over today. she told me my thighs got thicker, i knew something felt different when i tried putting my shorts on this afternoon. i gained weight. its true, im getting chunky again! i have some extra baggage around my face. i decided to try the southbeach diet, im gonna do some research. i have a goal to jog and attempt to do pilates every otherday day for a year. ah. and if all else fails...i guess im gonna stick to that body thermage laser procedure. i see it as a...reward...for myself. i think i deserve it &i dont think im the only one who feels that way. im going to try and stick to my word.

i decided
i dropped my classes. i needed to. im looking forward to transferring next fall or summer. i think right now...i need to focus and settle things at home. you know, with the kids, and just being a mom...trying to figure my schedule out. i can do it. it may take another 4-5 years for me to graduate...but hey im only 21 right now. whose in a hurry to grow up? when i get there...everything will all be worth it.

slow and steady...
easy does it...
you dont need to rush you know?

here are some pictures from EASTER SUNDAY =] click on them.