photos of my youngest sister marivic

late nights. ive been sleeping at 330 am for the past week. im trying my best to not procrastinate and the only way to do so is to restrict myself from any social contact whatsoever. its difficult because living in this teeny apartment really makes me feel like im being punished with solitary confinement in a prison cell. im hoping all the hard work will be worth more than half, if not all, in the end. i got my mind focused, ready & set to go far far away to do big thangss!

sweets for the tummy. today, i got to check out the new yogurt place here in national city. its called 'YOUGURTLiCiOUS.' its one of those pinkberry clones. ive been to yogurt world in clairemont and swirly cup on sweetwater road but, i must say that YOGURTLiCIOUS is by far my favorite. they have better topping options to choose from and not to mention the fact that you can also make a yogurt sundae!

hormones vs. jack-in-the box. the boys and i went to jack in the box to grab a late night snack to munch on at 1130pm. i was craving all kinds of things so i ordered a breakfast burrito, a jumbo jack and a salad for myself. i drive up to the window and ask if i can add two things onto my order and the guy responds, 'you cant add anything right now, you have to go back around.' i know for a fact, i do NOT have to go back around to order. that was the stupidest excuse ive ever heard. i understand that they were busy but you dont tell a customer to go back around to order. wtf? my hormones were too quick for me to control so i began to give attitude. they gave me my order, i checked the bag and noticed that my damn BREAKFAST BURRITO wasnt in the bag. i mention it to him and he says, i didnt hear you say BREAKFAST BURRITO. wtf, again?! so i answer him in a stern voice, i ordered a BREAKFAST BURRITO, so now what do you want me to do? go back around and order? he tries to offer another suggestion such as parking on the side so he can just come out and give it to me but by then ive already had enough. i just waved my hand in his face and said forget it and drove off. they were such asses. i give no respect to the workers at the jack in the box located here in national city. they work for two things, 1) to get paid 2) to serve their customers &they were definitely not serving a happy customer.

(Hoya Infrared R72 Filter)
this infrared filter allows me to take these amazing photos as shown below. pretty awesome, eh? i havent bought it yet but im pretty psyched about experimenting with it ;] cant wait to buy it. (the pictures are sample photos i browsed on Google.)

these are my children.

i love them to death. its hard to explain the love a parent has for a child. being able to experience being a child and also being a mother to a child, the attachment between a parent and child is so much stronger. many may believe that im wrong because they love their parents unconditionally and they feel the same sensitivity and over protection as a parent would towards their child. i dont deny you can feel that way, im sure many feel that way but when you have children of your own, its like you discover a love you never new existed. your time is spent thinking about them 24/7, a single cry hits you directly at your heart and the what if's begin to make you wonder about the many possibilities of what and what is not the best for them.

i try my best to keep these two happy. sometimes, its really good to take that in consideration. my problem i find at times is that because i love them so much, i have a difficult time trying to discipline them. i was raised to have a soft heart, and so i have become soft hearted, not only that, it takes a lot for me to actually get angry at them. i dont want them to grow up lazy or immoral but i dont want to them to grow up hating me for being so strict. ive been trying my best to balance out myself as a mother.

its not easy to understand,
i dont expect anyone to.

im getting tired of taking portrait photos. ive been eager to try something new so im looking forward to buying a new lens next week.
i really need a new lens.

im stressed out of my mind. ive been making prenatal appointments, i have appointments to tend to for caleb and jacob, i have class to think about &typical household chores i need to tend to.
i try to smile twice a week.

DESIGNED BY: ANDREW TRAN (graphic design project @the Art Institute)
ORIGINAL PHOTOGRAPHY TAKEN BY: UYEN VO (stubborn photography)
MAKEUP ARTIST: UYEN VO (stubborn photography)

DOWNTOWN SANDIEGO GRAFFITI
PHOTOGRAPHY: JACKIE
HAIR &MAKEUP: GRETCHEN

another semester, another headache. classes started for this spring on tuesday at the Design Institute. im crossing my fingers and praying that my classes will treat me well this semester because ive got 4more months until this pregnancy is dunzzoooo! i have a big issue with procrastination. it seems that i study harder if i dont do projects until 2 or 3 days before my final project is due but this time i really dont have a choice but to stay on my toes. sometimes, i feel like im never going to finish school but who am i kidding? im only twenty two years old, theres not need for me to rush. ive still got a bunch of years ahead of me but i guess that because i have three kids makes me feel like im old. somtimes, i catch myself thinking about grandchildren and attending PTA meetings! i guess thats what you call 'responsibility.'

insane in the membrane. i dont have time to do things i wish i can do on my spare time anymore. i have a deep passion for drawing, mainly life drawing. last year i took a life drawing class which consisted of nude art. i know it sounds a little uncomfortable but you learn to love the true beauty of art through nudity. if i can, some day, id like to find time to get back into that. it brings out the insanity in me through my hands where im able to express it sanely through charcoal and paper.

on the other hand... my camera has been collecting dust. ive been searching online (since i never have the time or gas to go from store to store) for a flash for my canon as well as a new lens. im just not satisfied with the lens i have, it drives me nutts. bleh. i feel like jessie from saved by the bell. you know the one episode where she starts over dosing on this pills and starts crying to zack saying, 'TIME...THERES NEVER ANY TIME...!' hah. you know what i mean. on the brighter side, i registered for a makeup class this saturday. i dont wear makeup but maybe it'll motivate me to paint peoples faces for the hell of it. it should be fun.

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